Lifespin iii
Celebrate chrch
like 1982-2006, 2009-2022- Celebrate (ie Crossing Church-Illuminate Church-Crosspointe Church-
scattered Celebrate Church peoples) is w/o my presence with these exceptions:
spring 2008: Thursday walks for AXIS meetings i didn't go to
c 2009 or 2010 few Thursday nights where I thought that there were AXIS meetings in the neighbor upstairs apartment
spring 2009: prayed w older Christian couple in parking lot of 535 Walmart for 5 minutes
spring 2009 and spring 2010: hung with Haiyan (who is a Christian) also heard her play ‘One Way Jesus’ on her computer a few times
spring 2010: one time for like 10 minutes me and mom dropped some charity donation to a youth church store near downtown Kissimmee
summer 2010: Me parents Gaylord Palms, me car, Dad inside briefly to meet Pastor John Hagee
c September 2011: non dream atm dream (ie Shannon bbq room 89, sep 94 atm i got on ride w parents to
Nw Brunswck in May or June 2000, ie used carish atm) I had where I was at Celebrate Church service
Catch up online to celebrate church going ons 2009-2013 etc, ie (virtually) saw Landon perform at WTP One Way Jesus online at WTP
2009-2017 messages I sent online to Celebrate Church/AXIS members (Ryan T Dec 2009 before concerta pill snuck before nostalgia videos online/Brent Reid Q3or4 2010/Lainee May 2013 etc/late 2017: Garret B reply email)
early 2013: (virtually) read and watched online about former Christian Pastor Mike Aus who became an Atheist and joined an Atheist anti church group (heel turn). Saw stuff from his old christian church he did and from his new anti christian atheist group online (his christian church(es) he pastored before becoming atheist reminded me of Celebrate Church)
July 2013 online messages to members of Pomona First Baptist and their youth groups similar to online messages I sent to Celebrate Church people Nov 2007-early 2008
Apr 20 2014: I walked toward Sunrise church service in Celebration Florida where Celebrate Church (Illuminate Church) was holding co service
June 2014 Inwent to one mass at Celebration Pres church
late May 2015: I considered going to Cele Comm church once or twice (complete with vision of curvy geeky woman who my OCD told me i would date even though she repulsed me ecly compared to some people i wanted to date at the time: some girls from Survivor) I think we also got a chair donation from Celebration Comm Church around that time
Summer 2015: (virtually) saw youtube video of Celebrate (Illuminate) church Friends theme song closing song from a 2013 service (complete with balloon popping)
August 2015: cycle prevented me from going to Hearts of Reality event at Downtown Celebration like it stopped me from going to Axis twice in late 2007 (Hearts of Reality at Town Tavern had similar feelto AXIS meetings) -virtually saw it via photos etc on Orlando weekly magazine site in summer 2016
Dec 2015: walked toward Celebration Corpus Christi Catholic Church at night around when my mom and Uncle Kenny went their for midnight service on Christmas eve (didn't go near it but toward it)
March 2016: few church members from Celebration Corpus Christi Catholic Church come to our motel to give us money for more nights there etc
summer 2016: Uncle Kenny and his wing man church group friend from Egypt stop by (his wing man group friend did not come in)
Apr 2019: church at Trop Palms (once)
c late 2010s mom wanted me to join church group like Un Kenny was in
late 2021: read about Matthew Celebrate church meeting w Tim Ingram at Cracker Barrel in 2015
etc
Times I drove near a Celebrate church thing 2008-201? while going on (including away from church activities)
all Celebrate Church songs online 2009-2019-2022 (C Tomlin Unchanging 2015, 2021, 2022)
Like in late 2000 2001 2002 where I tried to relive events in my life from 2 or 3 years earlier, do the same in 2020s ,2030s, 2040s etc with me reliving events but from my alternate reality life in the 2010s and early 2020s
But more than 2 ,3 years after said events, more like 3 to 30 something years after said event ,ie 15 year list instead of 2 or 3 year list to make 2030 Axis type house christian meeting similar to Matthew Walker's Cracker Barrel meeting with Pastor Tim Ingram in 2015, to satisfy this 'no celebrate church 2010s' mental disorder assuming it overrides no brainwash mental disorder I have
Find a country that is in 2010s culture wise (like how Japan allegedly was in 1980s in 2000s) and go to some Celebrate type church services there (ie in 2020s or 2030s or 2040s etc) to make up for not going in 2010s ,not to connect or anything since you don't need to be in a church to connect with christians or god (to satisfy this 'no celebrate church 2010s' mental disorder assuming it overrides no brainwash mental disorder I have) or Christian Nationalist thing
Cycle
Sep 2017-
(pre 2007/cycle problem is a mental disorder)
cycle problem bandaids 2009-2017-???
More of the same
Moreover, by me not being social or 'doing anything' in the 2010s early 2020s i was unintentionally appeasing my late 2010 mental disorder thoughts who told me to kms (i didn't kms myself but i did pretty much hermit etc in the 2010s and early 2020s etc) in the 2010s through 2022 ,I virtually went to places and did things virtually like people in the US and abroad did things virtually in 2020 2021 etc due to buggy
Relive 2010s -2022 in early mid 2020s, 2030s, 2040s etc
Because my other mental disorder wants me to 'make up for not doing things from Jan 2010/Nov 27 2012 to Nov 26 2022 like I did in late 2000 2001 2002 where I tried to relive events in my life from 2 or 3 years earlier (i.e 2001 like 1999 and 1998, 2002 like 2000 and 1999, 2003 like 2001 and 2000 etc)
I will do the same in early mid 2020s, late 2020s ,2030s, 2040s etc. I should once again relive events but not events from this life, but from my alternate reality life Jan 2010/Nov 27 2012 to Nov 26 2022 where I did as much or more from Jan 2010/Nov 27 2012 to Nov 26 2022 as I did in this life in the 1980s and 1990s or 1990s and 2000s (but more than 2 ,3 years after said events, more like few years to 30 something years after said events unless I do events in 2022 2023 and 2024 and they are 2019-2022, 2020-Nov 26 2022, 2020-2023, 2021-2023, 2021-2024, 2022-2024)
Like I go to a conservative group speech-rally in Oct 2029 ,*11 years after the similar Gavin McInnes Metro Republican club Oct 2018 speech and rally, or if I go to a reality show reunion in 2024, 9 years after Hearts of Reality 2015)
*listing births and events 11 years apart(but not trying to relive events 11 years later after each event like above) was something i toyed with at A Fls apt in 2000 (ie Jeff Goldbum 11 years older than John Stamos, 1983 NFL season-1994 NFl season)
Since late 2011, my mind tricked me into toying with idea that mom (since her stroke) thought I was born Nov 27 2002 instead of Nov 27 1982 and that I was thus a kid again and living the 2010s and 2020s in Florida like I lived the 1990s 2000s in New Jersey , so using that logic, I can make Jan 2030/Nov 27 2032-Nov 26 2042 be like what I wanted Jan 2010/Nov 27 2012 to Nov 26 2022 to be for me (ie cause according to my mind, my mom would think Jan 2030/Nov 27 2032-Nov 26 2042 are to me what the Jan 2010/Nov 27 2012 to Nov 26 2022 were to me in reality regardless what I do or don't do)
So do what I wanted to do but didn't do in the Jan 2010/Nov 27 2012 to Nov 26 2022 just 20 years later example in 2037 go to a politically themed play in the park to make up for me not going to the Donald Trump-Julius Caesar Shakespere in the Park in 2017 (the one that Laura Loomer broke up)
Maybe I get dementia or alzhtimers later in life where I think I am reliving things in the 1980s, 1990s, 2000s, 2010s, 2020s, 2030s, 2040s etc
Like someone out of prison after decade or decades me early mid 2020s, rest of 2020s and onward
mid 2020s, 2020s or 2030s?:
John Mccain from early 1980s-1987 made up for 6 years as pow in Vtnm War by him doing this “Between 1982 and 1987, McCain had received $112,000 in political contributions from Keating and his associates.[44] In addition, McCain's wife Cindy McCain and her father Jim Hensley had invested $359,100 in the Fountain Square Project, a Keating shopping center, in April 1986, a year before McCain met with the regulators.[7][45] McCain, his family, and their baby-sitter had made nine trips at Keating's expense, sometimes aboard Keating's jet; three of the trips were made during vacations to Keating's Bahamas retreat at Cat Cay.[7] McCain did not pay Keating (in the amount of $13,433) for some of the trips until years after they were taken, when he learned that Keating was in trouble over Lincoln.[7][46]”
Find a country that is Jan 2010/Nov 27 2012 to Nov 26 2022 culture wise (like how Japan allegedly was in 1980s in 2000s) and go to some 'Jan 2010/Nov 27 2012 to Nov 26 2022 social type place (ie in mid 2020s, late 2020s or 2030s or 2040s etc) to make up for not going in Jan 2010/Nov 27 2012 to Nov 26 2022 (to satisfy this 'you should have done more in the 2010s' mental disorder assuming it overrides the 'no brainwash' mental disorder I have)
Also like many people before in 20th century, 2000s, 2010s made up for things like I will make up in future for not taking advantage of Florida's lax buggy restrictions in 2020 and 2021 (maybe critics of those lax laws can reward me)
The Nov 27 2012-Nov 26 2022 time period like all 2-2 time periods is unofficially extended each decade for a few years i.e the extension of Nov 27 2012-Nov 26 2022 time period can last into mid 2020s (so i still have time to appease the other mental disorder which makes me regret not doing what i do at home but in public in the 2010s): ie 2023 2024 2025
Each decade:
Specific media
Nov 27 1962-Nov 27 1972 extended into Nov 27 1972-Nov 27 1982:
1973:
Vietnam War
Brady Bunch and Partridge Family year from ending
1974 :
Spring- summer :Seasons in the Sun single (mid 1960s through early 1970s type hippie song), Band on the Run (Beatles lead Paul Mcartney, Linda McCartney, Moody Blues Denny Laine ,former member Thunderclap Newman, JM Bluesbreakers Jimmy McCulloch, Spooky Tooth Henry McCulloch)
early to mid: last season of Brady Bunch and Partridge Family
Vietnam War
1975:
John Lennon’s song Imagine reissued (sounds like Beatles Nov 27 1962-1970 song, reissue of 1971 song)
Vietnam War Jan through April
1976:
Fall-winter: Brady Bunch variety hour
1977:
early: Brady Bunch variety hour
Go Your Own Way by Fleetwood Mac
1978:
Deer Hunter (single digit years after 1969 and Nov 27 1972)
1981:
Brady Brides tv series
1982:
F13thIII: Hppie character
Nov 27 1972-Nov 27 1982 extended into Nov 27 1982-Nov 27 1992:
1983:
Nov 27 1972-Nov 27 1982 drug cocaine culture still happening i.e movies
Jaws III , including in early draft of Amty Islnd updates which could have made movie
1984:
Nov 27 1972-Nov 27 1982 drug cocaine culture still happening i.e movies
Summer to fall. prelife 1982 atms which may seem like they happened before November 27 1982 7:21pm ET, Me eye thing hospitals like NYU and Philadelphia Children’s hospital
Thriller single releases (Discoish song)
CNN headline news type theme according to 80stvthemes.com
1995:
1998:
January: Diddy Kong Racing where I fantasized about going to Syvlle elementary and middle schools instead of OBNJ elementary and middle schools
Summer: 1980s nostalgia special mentioning 80s things like Baby on Board , single digit years (8 or 9 years) after 1980s, 5 years after Nov 27 1992
Nov 27 1992-Nov 27 2002 extended into Nov 27 2002-Nov 27 2012
2003:
Forth to last full year in NJ (2 Spruce Ln) and thus forth to last full year of Nov 27 1992-January 2007 time period. That time period, while not as monolith as late 1982-mid 1997 living in OB time period this time period isn't far off And is grouped together the more and more I get more distance between moving to Florida and where I am now. It was only when we moved our 2 Spruce Ln Parlin house to Florida that things began to really radically change
Fall and early winter: me college reading class at East Brunswick h.s which I did there Fall and early winter , in late 2000 I wanted to transfer to EBHS over yg Kristen
2004:
Third to last full year in NJ (2 Spruce Ln) and thus third to last full year of Nov 27 1992-January 2007 time period. That time period, while not as monolith as late 1982-mid 1997 living in OB time period this time period isn't far off And is grouped together the more and more I get more distance between moving to Florida and where I am now. It was only when we moved our 2 Spruce Ln Parlin house to Florida that things began to really radically change
late: Coyote Ugly and lt 1999 2000 pop scene nostolgia, w atms from it (prelife 82 atm, Feb 2001 atm),
2005:
Second to last full year in NJ (2 Spruce Ln) and thus second to last full year of Nov 27 1992-January 2007 time period. That time period, while not as monolith as late 1982-mid 1997 living in OB time period this time period isn't far off And is grouped together the more and more I get more distance between moving to Florida and where I am now. It was only when we moved our 2 Spruce Ln Parlin house to Florida that things began to really radically change
Mid to late '1990s type alt rock' song Helena by My Chemical Romance left charts,
After me mom drove through SWMHS and went to OB thrift store near Market Boy
2006:
Last full year in NJ (2 Spruce Ln) and thus full year of Nov 27 1992-January 2007 time period. That time period, while not as monolith as late 1982-mid 1997 living in OB time period this time period isn't far off And is grouped together the more and more I get more distance between moving to Florida and where I am now. It was only when we moved our 2 Spruce Ln Parlin house to Florida that things began to really radically change
2007:
Last month in NJ (2 Spruce Ln) and thus last month of Nov 27 1992-January 2007 time period. That time period, while not as monolith as late 1982-mid 1997 living in OB time period this time period isn't far off And is grouped together the more and more I get more distance between moving to Florida and where I am now. It was only when we moved our 2 Spruce Ln Parlin house to Florida that things began to really radically change
March onward: Period w Celebrate Church, AXIS, bible, Celebration events, etc was similar to 1980s to early 1990s things I did (ie 1980s sat am toon atm in my dream where I got stomach ache causing needle by former pediatrician in 1984 which haunted me next few days in 2007), while songs like My Future Decided by Hillsong and Glory to the Lord had 1990s type feel to them
late: Celebrate Church-AXIS popular thing was similar to popular thing when I was in Middle School and HS 1994-June 2001
2008:
early to mid : Celebrate Church-AXIS popular thing was similar to popular thing when I was in Middle School and HS 1994-June 2001
late: J.B OLLG sim to late 2006 NJ (fake mems of us moving back to NJ in 2009), sim to late 1990s-early 2000s young pop era songs
Nov 27 1962-Nov 27 1972 in Nov 27 1982-Nov 27 1992:
Fall/ winter: Happy Days last season
Like in years like 1983 1984 1985 while they were part of the Nov 28 1982-Nov 26 1992 cycle there was still some 'barely off the heels of the Nov 28 1972-Nov 26 1982' time period. Tvtropes mentions like 1983 'while 1980s still had some 1970s culture and thus was before the 1980s culture took shape) and where there is some influence still from that previous time period still there
This is sort of like after a thunderstorm its cloudy humid w some slight sun but still damp etc, or aftershocks after earth quake, or 'colder than absolute zero' ie 3 higher than absolute zero that looks below absolute zero is still 3 degrees above absolute zero,
Scott ,Dominic S and others in car by Water Tower Plaza possibly eating at Quiznos, then we dropped
Scott off in North Village not far after or another similar time), once we ate at Cici's with c middle aged
guy and his young son, once was w Jonathan M as he unloaded something north of where Celebration
Library was built, another time we ate at this place near Bahama Breeze might have been a subway
place with fellow church member guy who was born in early 1986, people who I did at least some of
this stuff with include Jonathan M, the guy born in early 1986, Scott, Dominic S, Landon, Erik, Nick F
possibly Garrett) early mid 2007 through mid late 2007 (possibly into 2008)
fellow young adults at weekly AXIS meetings at Jared's house (c April 2007-June 2007), Jonathan's
condo (August 2007-late 2007), and once at Fawn's condo (sometime in 2007) also once or twice had
AXIS meeting at Tyler's house c Sep 2007
Resort (1H 2008) few of the times we went out to eat afterwards (Chilli's, Applebee's etc)
with at least dozen other fellow AXIS young adults at AXIS Spike n Holdem in North Village
(volleyball, football, other games, food, music) w Jared, Ryan, Lacey, Lainee, Greg, Sarah C, Landon
etc June 2007
Hung w Stefano and few others (ie SF II arcade game) after I was baptised at Tyler's house August
2007
Once or twice church adult bible study meeting with Joe S, Bbe (58 year old), Ben L downtown
Celebration morning c Sep 2007
doing clean up at school to get it ready for school year August 2007
xmas gifts and watch Home Alone with (once or both times) Lacey, Sarah C, Lainee, likely Ryan,
Mike S, Jon Dave etc (Oct 2007 and Dec 2007)
in Dec 2007
Twice at Jon B's house to play Guitar Hero and once watch Die Hart 4 with Jon, Lacey, Lainee, Ryan?,
Mike S?, Sarah C (late 2007)
Stephanie B from AXIS (football then Red Lobster/another time movie) Nov 2007/Dec 2007
2007
Chris Merz (his home Guitar Hero II) Spring 2008
Alec Taunton (w Chris at his home Guitar Hero II) spring 2008
Dave Beckett (onceish dinner) Spring 2008
Cousin Cassie (WDW twice summer 2009)
Helen Huang Haiyan (Spring 2009 more than a few times Disney then our house and a bunch of
times Disney including Blizzard Beach and or our house including staying over fewish nights in Spring
2010)
Courtney Mrvik chatted with her at least more than a few times throughout summer trying to get her
to let me stay with her in Medford Wisconsin which she agreed to but turned me down after I reneged
and then tried to unreneg (I was this close to getting on a plane in August 2010 to move in w her)
summer 2010
(doesn't count) Ashley McCarthy (for mom smmr 2011 twice)
(doesn't count/faux) when my mind tricked me to believe that my mom thought I was 20 years younger
and a child again, and that the pre teen kid(s) who lived above neighbor's condo in late 2011 to spring
2012 who in actuality I avoided a bunch of times in late 2011 early 2012 when I saw him/them outside
but who1 my mind tricked me into believing that my mom believed that I was really hanging out with
him/them those bunch of times I saw them outside late 2011 early 2012 (my mom did have long convo
with the kids mother when she was moving in 2012, I was a few blocks north waiting for said convo to
end in condo complex north of our condo complex) late 2011 to early mid 2012
Steve Klpp/Julie K (indirect friend of family person close to us via my mom and Julie)
w Steve and Julie in August 2007 at Julie's house in Inverness FL
w Julie and Steve in March 2016 few days we lived with Julie in Inverness FL
w Julie and Steve in spring 2016 at least twice w Julie to help us move into Bella Apartment and then
Julie and Steve came back a few weeks later came after my email thing
w Julie and Steve possibly another time or more at Bella in 2016 and or 2017
w Julie and Steve at our 1st 2018 Tropical Palms condo in summer 2018
w Julie and Steve at our 2nd Tropical Palms condo at least once Fall 2018
w Julie at Old Town (day ie A&W, night drinks by Bungee ride) on at least 3 or 4 separate occasions c
2019
w Julie and Steve meeting at motel north of Tropical Palms early then few hours later w Julie having
lunch or dinner at Regal Oaks in August 2019
at office once or twice w me and mom talking to this AJ Mclean lookalike office manager guy in spring
2016 or spring 2017
Barefoot teen brown hair girl hangs out by me and mom once when me and mom get mail at our Bella
Apartment (c 2016 or 2017)
Beach NSW Australia in Nov 1? 2017 (on this list because we talked very briefly too)
forth here and there giving advice and stuff) Fall 2018
AE on Wikipedia, when I was editing as JC7V7DC5768, we would talk page talk back and forth here
Town arcade in Feb 2019
Me parents went to Cocoa Beach Nov 27 2022 til 3pmish, pier , ocean. Felt more connected with others than being a stranger. Closer to full moon prty than normal beach day. Talked to woman w fam on pier briefly.
our reality 1988 through 1998 (NJ personal ones/yg/etc), 1999 through 2009 (NJ personal
ones/groups/etc)
It was however the first playoff victory in the history of the steelers.
Alt realities where I kept going to Celebrate Church (later Crossing-Illuminate Church) AXIS until end of 2008, until: 2009 , 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, 2019 or I went back in 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, 2019 etc after not going for 1 or more years
Alt realities where I went to a church similar to Celebrate Church in 2008, 2009 , 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, 2019 (i.e Celebration Comm Church 2015 2016 etc, Wng man group late 2010s, Jared’s new church, etc)
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